The comparison may sound a little much coming just after Yeezus, but last night reminded me just how much experiences like that have the frenzied feel of church, somehow. Big, tightly packed, standing room gigs inspire a kind of embodied spiritualism in me. Bass and rhythm that penetrates my bones, my hair clinging to my face and my neck, the beat of strobe lighting effects against my eyelids and my entire body feels suffused with something other than myself, and yet at the same time feels entirely mine.

I often worry, before gigs like that, that I’ll get on the floor and find that I’ve lost the taste, but the lights drop and the bass starts and the crowd around me starts to melt and I’m so deeply in my body and it’s beautiful.

And I come out of it with my ears ringing, and my ankles crying with regret, and it’s not long before the sweat plastering my hair to my skin is just this side of slimy, but even so, everything feels just a little bit brighter, for a while. And that’s so worth it.

I think the most succinct and yet fully expressive statement I can make about Kanye last night is that he came on stage to The Imperial March. What a fucking nerd. Thankyou to @pluckyminna for the company. :)

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OMG YEEZUS

OMG YEEZUS

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small victories

So, being in an unusually good mood today because Kanye tonight and Baby Groot on my desk at work meant that when I hit 2pm and suddenly felt weird and apprehensive and anxious for no apparent reason, I had the presence of mind to think that I should try eating something, and now I have soup and am feeling better and have a case of basically remembering what hunger feels like. So that’s pretty cool I think?

Which is also an indicator that I’m better at looking after myself when I feel better, I guess?

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Groot is going to keep me company at work :)

Groot is going to keep me company at work :)

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"For a wound to heal, you have to clean it out. Again, and again, and again. And this cleaning process stings. The cleaning of a wound hurts. Yes. Healing takes so much work. So much persistence. And so much patience. But every process has an end and an appointed term. Your healing will come, God willing. And like all created things, your worldly pain will die."

Yasmin Mogahed (via wordsthat-speak)

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bisexualcowgirl:

I love Jed Bartlet but imagine The West Wing where everything is the same but Abbey is president and Jed is just the dotty first husband full of inane facts

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Stephen brought me a custom made Groot I’m going to cry.

Stephen brought me a custom made Groot I’m going to cry.

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Sometimes the impulse just sneaks up on me and I’m completely unprepared to counter it no matter how much better I’ve been at staving it off goddammit what is wrong with me jfc

Win for today: I have a job interview for a part time admissions role at one of the Residential Colleges at a University here. So, yay? It’s not until Tuesday week, so there’s a bit of time, but still. Trying not to be too hopeful about it because me and hope don’t get along, but interview = good, so I’m gonna go with that.

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